Re: Just a little rant
I don't know. Ive hurt myself. Ive cut my leg open quite bad, I dont know why. My flatmate came into my room on sunday and started talking to me but he was irritating me beyond belief. He started with, "Interesting news..." in the most boring monotonous tone with a long pause that seemed to last forever. This was so annoying that I cant explain, he just waited and waited and waited as if he was deliberately doing this to rub me the wrong way. Didnt matter how many times I said "yes" to try and get him to get on with it he just waited. Well he eventually said "mmmmmmmmm" oh my god, I thought I was gonna throw my computer at him. He then went on to explain, in very very intricate detail, how he had a month off work. I got very bored and tried to make it clear I was uninterested by just looking away and breathing quite heavily (I didnt really want to say anything) and that I felt like being alone but he would not budge from my bedroom doorway. After what felt like an eternity and after a long uncomfertable silence he slowly left my room closing the door behind him. After that I felt like hitting my head against a wall. I silently screamed and grabbed a knife I have and started to cut my leg. I have no idea why. I have 17 little cuts that hardly bled on my leg and the last 1 was quite deep, I felt it tear and the skin parted. This scared me but it didnt bleed much until I stood up. Now I have a very nasty scab and feel so stupid. I dont want to do it again and why the hell did I do it? I have no idea, I was in a rage. Things are so hard and confusing and I just dont want to live like this. I just want to be normal and be happy. I dont really want to talk now, writing this has made me feel like I did a bit on sunday.
Computer games calm me down so I guess I should play them more :s
Last edited by veryconfused22; 09-05-2007 at 10:00 AM.