new here. not sure what to do.
hi. i'm new to the forums.
i'm 27 years old and 7 months ago i had a total hysterectomy due to stage 4 endometriosis. i am on bioidentical hormone replacement therapy. levels have been tested and they are fine. not suffering from any hormone swings that i can tell.
today i'm barely making it. i'm at work but i can't focus. it has been days since i've been productive. i forget everything. i cannot stand to be around people and i would like to go home, get in bed and never get back out. my back hurts all the time from what i guess is tension. i hate everything and i cannot imagine a time when i won't or didn't but i'm sure those times existed.
i'm on wellbutrin 300mg. been over 3 months. it no longer does anything but cause me to be irritable.
i have an appointment to see my doc tomorrow. i have been on almost every medication known to mankind. i'm fed up. i've not been this miserable in a very, very long time. i wish i could run away but there is no place far enough. there is nowhere to go.
i was thinking of trying cymbalta but i read all these horror stories. (withdrawal and gaining 30 pounds etc.) if it's anything like lexapro i'd rather stand in front of a bus.
thinking of 5-HTP but i don't exactly have the luxury of time to play with medication.
if you have any advice i'd like to hear it. i'm not sure how i'll get through today. tomorrow isn't even on the radar. it's down to minute by minute now. i went outside to attempt to go somewhere for lunch and upon seeing people everywhere i just went back inside. i feel like everyone can tell...paranoid i guess.