Feel like giving up
Tonight I reallly felt like giving up. I've been going through a lot and one small, unrelated incident just trigged me to think about everything again, and immediately, i secluded myself from everyone where i cried, and cried. i cried like there was no tomorrow. i have cried till my head and eyes hurt. I felt the pain as I cried, I felt all the hurt, all the worries about my future and I felt very strongly that I did not want to be here, I don't know what my purpose is if i can't snap out of this. Those who have read my past posts would know that I do not go to therapy and no meds. Tonight I convinced myself to believe that since I am still so depressed and have not "gotten over" any of the stuff that has happened, I must be weak. I do not deserve to be here, I am a failure. A half hour ago I wondered how I could get myself to stop crying, but right now, i am numb from all feelings, good or bad, just numb.
Last edited by Angelica_01; 09-07-2007 at 09:18 PM.