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Old 09-08-2007, 08:21 PM   #1
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Burst out crying and feel low--anybody else feel like venting tonite?

Hi all--Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's me and mood swings. I have been feeling crummy physically and depressed and I burst out crying which helps for a bit but honest to God, I can't stand this being in my own way! It was 95 degrees to day(a record breaker) which makes one close all the windows and put the ac on. Feels like a coffin-- I live in a basement apartment. Add feeling crummy from fibro and digestive trouble and all I want to do is cry. I got up today, did dishes and laundry--believe me, it was an effort but kept busy and even went to church. I'm going to the specialists soon and the psychiatrist on Monday but for today just want to scream. I have been really heading down depression highway since around July 15th and began taking Celexa but can't stand how it makes me feel so stopped it. I thought I would jump out of my skin. Here I sit venting and am ashamed to do so because I know I'm all over the place and can't help it. Not even a moon out tonight to blame. I would love to forget about myself and hear a good vent tonight from others and maybe we can have a laugh or two in between. Take care all and hope to hear from you soon--Hopeto

 
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Old 09-09-2007, 07:09 AM   #2
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Re: Burst out crying and feel low--anybody else feel like venting tonite?

I am on week 3 three of lexapro and I am not doing well. Obsessing about finances and also crying. Should go to church this morning but I took a xanax and it is making me sleepy. All I want to do is stay in bed and cry and sleep. I have been dealing with this for a year and a half and enough is enough. I am also on buspar for anxiety. I don't know why I can't get better. I try to take one day at a time but I can't even do that right now. Need some hope. Godbless

 
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Old 09-09-2007, 06:13 PM   #3
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I am on week 3 three of lexapro and I am not doing well. Obsessing about finances and also crying. Should go to church this morning but I took a xanax and it is making me sleepy. All I want to do is stay in bed and cry and sleep. I have been dealing with this for a year and a half and enough is enough. I am also on buspar for anxiety. I don't know why I can't get better. I try to take one day at a time but I can't even do that right now. Need some hope. Godbless
Hi Marian-- I'm sorry I didn't write back to you today as I have felt absolutely crummy physically and it can really prey on you mentally. I did finally get up after 1 pm and pushed myself to get dressed and have something to eat--very painful though when I do. I am so sorry that you're not feeling well today what with having the blues. I would like to try Buspar for the anxiety aspect. I've been taking the Risperdal for a few weeks--just for band-aid therapy until tomorrow when I see the psychiatrist. Do you think maybe you need a boost of Lexapro or a reduction in Xanax? This time of the year is a killer when you have depression, especially S.A.D.. Be good to yourself--if you don't feel like driving, order a sub or a pizza and have it delivered. Ask someone to go out and get you an ice cream. Right now myself I'm hanging on to the minute that I see the pdoc. If I couldn't I think I would go back to smoking this week--that's how low I am. We both need someone else, too to come to the board and share. I just know that sharing with you tonite has made me feel better. I don't know if you made it to church today, but if you didn't that's okay because God knows what's in your heart and that's as good as being there hearing the Gospel. Give yourself a lot of credit just for putting your feet on the floor today. I always say if you can get one dish washed or have the ability to put something in the wastebasket or do a load of wash, that's an accomplishment. Don't be hard on yourself. You're not alone. You're a wonderful person and sometimes we who live with depression just need a little more rest than others. We can't help it--we just do because our sleep patterns stink. Our one day at a time can only be dealt with sometimes by only a minute at a time, so just let go and just be easy on yourself. The blues can be tiring at times. Write me back if this makes any sense to you. God bless you, too and take care of yourself--Hopeto--

 
Old 09-10-2007, 07:25 PM   #4
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Re: Burst out crying and feel low--anybody else feel like venting tonite?

I did make it to church and stayed for almost the whole service. Then I went home and spent most of the day in bed. Took the dogs for a walk with DH and then we went to dinner. Today I applied for 5 jobs either in person or faxing resumes. I don't feel up to working right now. I have cried most of the evening. I don't take xanax that often. Sometimes go without several days in a row. I wonder if the lexapro is making the depression worse. I was better than this before I started taking it. Godlbless

 
Old 09-10-2007, 09:49 PM   #5
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I did make it to church and stayed for almost the whole service. Then I went home and spent most of the day in bed. Took the dogs for a walk with DH and then we went to dinner. Today I applied for 5 jobs either in person or faxing resumes. I don't feel up to working right now. I have cried most of the evening. I don't take xanax that often. Sometimes go without several days in a row. I wonder if the lexapro is making the depression worse. I was better than this before I started taking it. Godlbless
Hi Marian--You know, you might be right-- you might be having an opposite reaction to the Lexapro. I couldn't take its cousin, Celexa. It made me too jumped up and couldn't sleep right. I always felt as jumpy as a cat. I stopped that a week and a half ago and the pdoc I saw today is trying me on Effexor XR--37.5 mg and would like me to try Risperdal again at bedtime. I was so open with him, telling him how crummy and weepy I have felt physically and mentally. Well, here I go again on my merry go round of different meds and hopefully without hives from them. Today was a cloudy, dismal day, but was conducive to my taking a nap today for about 15 min. It actually felt good. I think seeing the doctor helped me to relax a little. I don't know where you're getting the strength to apply for jobs right now. I know I couldn't at the moment--more power to you. I'm sure you have a wonderful husband you can lean on--that's a plus, too. Maybe a call to your doctor is in order and they can change you or add something beneficial. I've been going back to church more this year than ever and watching some of the religious programs have given me comfort during difficult times. When I was a kid, going to the drugstore to buy "Queen Helene" Mint Julep mask could lift the spirits. I wish it were that easy today! I will say a prayer for you tonight that you will feel better beginning today and something will come into your life this week that will make a difference. God bless, Marian, and having a comfortable sleep--Hopeto--

 
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