Thank you for your kind words. I just always have that guilty feeling like I am not giving enough back. So what you said really helps. Maybe those feelings stem from the depression or from my past.
In answer to your question, no I am not a new mother but what is interesting is sometimes when I have heard new moms describe postpartum depression I feel a lot of the same feelings, if that makes sense, like the emotional feelings, but I guess depression in general causes a lot of similarities. For me the pms or pmdd is a true nightmare as I have endocrine disorders which I think really made this all worse. I have pcos (polycystic ovarian syndrome), hypothyroidism (well treated though) and empty sella syndrome and a possible pituitary tumor (drs. couldn't agree on what they say on my MRI).
The hormone doctors were a nightmare to deal with and I finally lost my health insurance so I can't do much at the moment anyway about any of these things. I just know I am not myself at all. Plus, a few years back my little brother (18yrs old) was killed in a car accident, my other brother turned to drugs badly and a bunch of other things. I guess I could only handle so much, yet I still feel like I should have been stronger.
I will tell you though, the panic attacks are the absolute worst. I literally feel I am going insane.
Sorry didn't mean to write a novel. But thank you again for your concern and kind words. It helps tremendously!
I will see the doctor this afternoon and I will see how it goes. I am a bit afraid about increasing the prozac as I am not sure if I am getting more anxiety or not.