At the moment, I finding it really hard to enjoy myself, I have a bit of spare time to do some things I never really had time to do, and wanted to do, but have now have no interest to do them.
This is really frustrating because I just can't switch off and enjoy anything, I'm always feeling bored and tired. I'm not sure if my depression has worsened but I am definitely feeling depressed as a result of not being able to enjoy things.
I am dreading each day because even if I fill my day with things to do, I am really finding myself bored and disinterested. I can't explain how it is exactly, but it's like something is holding me back, I don't know.
Hi Allsorts, do you think that you might be filling your days with just boring chores with no fun? Sometimes I think when you are getting better then you become more aware of what your life really is. When you were really struggling with maintaining yourself you really don't realize how empty your life is. When you start getting better and life isn't such a struggle to just maintain yourself you can look around and see "wow, there really isn't much fun in my life". It is hard to include fun in your life when you can barely maintain. I always saw it as a time to add more fun.
Well, mainly it's always the past - it seems to come round and haunt me this time of year. I get reminded of all the problems, I have and people close to me have, and I guess I just get tangled up in it emotionally, sub-counciously.