Why Does God Like to Torture Me?
This is my first time on here in a while. I've never been lucky in love! I've dated people who always found a way to hurt me. Or I've been interested in those who have found a way to hurt me. I had a major crush on a guy that goes to my gym. About a year and a half ago, I randomly found him on *******.com. I sent him a message never intending on letting him know who I was. I finally get the nerve to send a pic and introduce myself at the gym. It ends up he went to high school with my best friend's husband. He is also related to my best friend's husband's sister. So this isn't like some random guy, there are degrees of separation between us. We spoke online sometimes and chatted at the gym. I got the nerve and offered him my number but he told me he wasn't looking to meet anyone at the time. Of course I felt rejected but had no choice but to move on. We would still say hi at the gym. I started to see him less and less before not seeing him at all. Keep in mind this was a year ago. My landlord is getting some work done on her house. Imagine my surprise when I pulled up to my apartment to find Brian (gym guy) doing the work on her house with his cousin. My face must have been priceless. I've always asked God to send me messages about my lovelife and why things happen. Let's take a few steps back...in high school I fell in love with Pat who loved my high school best friend. Of course he came to me with his problems but ran to her when he came home from the Marines. While out at a bar years ago, I met Jonathan. Jonathan messed with my head for a while. Guess what? We know the same people also. A few years later, I was supposed to be set up with my friend's husband's friend. This is the same husband that knows Brian. Of course I fell for the wrong friend. Joe and I dated, shared depression and he up and left me for a bong and his boys. Then there was Kevin, who I met at a close family friend's wedding. We dated for a month later him to bail without an explanation..still to this day. Last year I hit it off with Craig, who I ended up being partners with in a wedding this summer. Yeah he played with my head too. In the beginning of this school year, I was set up with Phil (also through a good friend) who phoned me everyday for over a month but we always had difficulty getting together. He gave too many excuses and stopped calling when I wouldn't change my plans. Ok...more recent. My school principal is attempting to set me up with her friend's nephew. He got my number a few weeks ago and has yet to call. Ok...now back to Brian. So now Brian knows exactly where I live. Also keep in mind we know the same people. So I'm laying on my couch the other day. He walks up the walkway and finds a way to wave in my door. I was telling my landlord the story. She proceeds to tell me how she knows his family and he has a great family. His cousin knocks on my door to talk to my landlord. She starts asking him questions (I didn't ask her to) about Brian. His cousins reponds to her questions but looks at me. So I guess Brian told him the whole deal about how we know each other. He tells my landlord that Brian is single. So I don't see him tonight but he contacts me online. We talk for a few before ending the convo. My landlord then calls to say she found out he is living with someone, his family hates her. DOES GOD LIKE TO TORTURE ME? I'm sitting here a ball of tears! My friends husband says he's a loser. What I don't get is did Brian think I wouldn't find out? Am I that pathetic? What's his point? Is he unhappy in his relationship and is now wondering why he's met up with me again? I'm sure wondering why I met up with him again. I was thrilled when he contacted me tonight. Within 10 minutes I was hysterical to find about his girlfriend. HELP ME!!!