depression - Depression Message Board

Bradjill · 03-17-2008, 10:27 PM

I think I should go to a hospital. Even with medication I feel sick of the battle. LIke everything I do is never enough, I'm never done, accepted or complete. I'm sick of trying. Almost.

tealite77 · 03-17-2008, 10:37 PM

dont give up please, i see this is your first post, we are all fighting here,
we are all like family here, pull up a chair, talk to us.

Bradjill · 03-17-2008, 10:41 PM

I just was shutting this down and read that I actually had a reply. I"m not giving up, I cant. But I'm sick of feeling this way. I take Paxil everyday. I dont know why I feel this way STILL.
I'm just sick of it, and I feel like nothing I do at home is good enough, theres always stuff left undone to disappoint someone. I fake happy to my friends and people at church, they think i'm so happy all the time. When I'm not I'm miserable.

I dont know why I think this will help either? SOmetimes I think I should just commit myself, but then I could put my family in jepordy. I wouldnt want to do that? Then what? I'd have to be on MORE pills. Yippy! I can fake better. Maybe thats just what people do? Fake happy? Fake live.

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Originally Posted by tealite77

dont give up please, i see this is your first post, we are all fighting here,
we are all like family here, pull up a chair, talk to us.

tealite77 · 03-17-2008, 11:00 PM

i know how you feel,
how long have you been on your meds?

i know how if feels when your sad inside and the world thinks your happy inside when your really down,
try it here, you might just find it refreshing to know your not alone.

Sannah · 03-18-2008, 07:20 AM

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Originally Posted by Bradjill

I feel like nothing I do at home is good enough, theres always stuff left undone to disappoint someone.

then I could put my family in jepordy.

Hi BJ, sounds like you have some tough expectations to fill which don't take into account who you really are or that you really are trying? It also sounds like your family has a certain standing in the community so no one can shatter this image by needing and accepting outside help? Have you considered counseling?