Going back to work?????
I've been having a serious bout of depression for 2 months now. Some of my friends (who don't really know too much about depression) are gently trying to nudge me back to work as I am facing financial trouble.
My problem is I am terrified of going back to work until I have healed more. A few months ago I had a panic attack when I accepted a job and subsequently turned down the position before I started work. I'm afraid of the same thing happening AGAIN - having a panic attack.
My friends seem to think that I can "will" my mind over matter and solve this problem regardless of the terror and depression. I think I need more time, but feel an urgency to save my *** from financial trouble. I feel I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.
I'm still having problems with suicidal/fatalistic thoughts, negativity, hopelessness, helplessness, I lost my appetite, anxiety, etc.
Any feedback about the prodding of friends about going back to work versus feeling impaired and unable to work?
I started a new med 5 weeks ago and haven't really felt much better. Bob