I have suffered depression since first grade. I have struggle all my life w/ depression. I have been hospitalized 5x for Severe Depression. I attempted suicide in 1997. I'm now 41 yrs. old (Thank you, God). Suicide is NEVER the solution. The looks on my family faces, the pain in their eyes from my suicide attempt emotionally destroyed them. They could not believe I done that. (Even I can't believe I done it) It was scary!! Honey, you must seek professional help. Please. If you are just beginning to have depression, they can get you on medications to help. I have been on many different types of depression medicines. I currently take EFFEXOR XR. Of course, it took a while to get me regulated and suited to a medication that worked for me. You can't give up and drinking only makes the situation even worse and drugs too. I've also been down that road to. Please take this advice, see a professional right-a-way, sometimes it takes going to a couple of professionals to find one you can really relate to and they can relate to you. PLEASE DO THIS!!!! After years and years of depression and even now I still struggle, I cry some days, especially now that I have become totally diabled due to back surgeries and staying home everyday really gets to me. I know I must remain strong. You must remain strong. I mean no offense to anyone who reads this, but honestly Suicide is a cowards way out - you are no coward. You are starting in the right direction by asking for help. So, again I beg you to go to a Professional. It will be the right thing to do. In the meantime, I will keep you and all others w/ depression in my prayers. Cause God only knows how hard it is to live w/ depression. May God go with you.