I am fortunate to have a decent job. Been at the same company 17 yrs and same line of work for 30 yrs. My problem - I can't retire with full SS benefits until I'm 70. I'm 48 now and I am tired. Work has gotten extremely complicated.My dept has been working at a frantic pace for over a yr with no raises in many years. The company keeps adding more branches, but not the support staff. I cannot leave there because my husband and I need the health ins - he has heart disease and I don't want any issues with "pre-existing conditions" should something arise with his heart (it has every 6 yrs for 18 yrs).
I feel like work sucks the life out of me. By the time I get home, I have nothing left. I am so tired I don't have any energy and it just keeps getting worse. I feel like I have no way out of this and cannot bear the thought of keeping this up for another 22 yrs. I start thinking about it and it gets overwhelming - like a big ache in my heart. I live for the weekends, but usually end up doing housework because I let it all go to pot during the week.
Okay, thank you for letting me complain.
My company is about 125 people big. 17 production branches. I work in the corporate office and we are it for dealing with all the new incoming people.
Our HR dept is one person who can't keep up with the work required for new employees. Our whole office is drowning in work but they won't bring on help because all these new branches has not produced to their expectations, while the whole corporate office is in overdrive. I think you may able to work 30 hrs a week and get health ins. It's something to think about for the future. I'd have to stock pile some money, which just never seems to happen - there is always something that needs to be paid.
You did give me something to think about though - if they ever hire on more staff. Right now they'd never consider it since my dept is already in overload and thats with us working overtime.
Granny, I think that Waratah's suggestion about working less hours and still keeping your health insurance sounds good. I hope it is doable for you. Once you work less and make less money, you will adjust to having less and spending less. You sound exhausted and need more rest and time for yourself.
Don't work yourself into the grave.
I actually had to come home from work a few hours early today. Not a lick of energy and body aches. I don't know if I'm coming down with something or it's "workitis".
Yeah, I really do feel like this job is going to send me to the grave. I know that I cannot keep this up until I'm 70. The company I work for does not have any retirement. We have a 401K, but it's all our own money. They don't put a dime in, the tight wads!
Thanks for your reply,
Granny0, I know exactly where you are coming from. 99% of my depression is work related also and I know there is NO easy answer. I have to get up so early that I have absolutely no life during the week because I go to bed like a kindergartner and basically just live for the weekend which is a shortened Friday night and Saturday. I don't enjoy my Sundays knowing I have to go to bed so early. Hang in there and I hope it gets better for you.
