dopeyanne

Hello,
I'm sorry that you are feeling so alone. You say your baby is 6 months old. Have you talked to your Dr. to tell him/her how you are feeling. Have you tried talking to your husband. Maybe he needs to hear how you are feeling. Sometimes young men don't know the demands made on their wives. If you have a talk with him try not to make it look like you don't think he is doing enough, or that he is taking you for granted.
These can be very difficult years in a marriage. You have just had a baby and are probably not getting enough rest and he on the otherside maybe feels neglected. Even though you have tried talking to him about it by making him feel special. Sometimes and I don't necessarily mean you but husbands can feel neglected for no good reason. Have you ever tried just giving him a big hug for no reason other than you love him very much.
You made a mistake. Leave it behind you, don't beat yourself up over it. You were probably feeling very vulnerable. Just for the fun of it and maybe if you tried it just for a week. Give him hugs and tell him how much you love him and that you aren't feeling yourself. Man try to be macho but they need a lot of love, hugs, and tell him.
Even though you feel that you do nothing but give and get nothing back. Someone in a marriage has to take the first step in tying the knot tight and usually it is the wife.
Dont' be concerned about your friends taking advantage be concerned about your husband. Just tell him how much you love him. Let him know that you need help.
As far as your mother goes, I can remember after I had my first baby my mom was going though the change of life. She would call me and tell me to come to her house because she was having a heart attack. Actually it was after I had my third child. I told her the kids were all sick with bronchitis and that the baby who was only a few weeks old was bringing up. I told her I would get over as fast as I could. Well, I never heard the end of it. I often think it is a mother- daughter thing. As the years go by they seem to realize that you are an adult and have your hands full. Only you can know what is going on in your family but remember to love yourself. If we don't love ourselves how can we love any one after. I do hope you go to your family Dr. and just spill everything out. Please tell him/her how you are feeling. Take care and my thoughts will be with you. I have been married for 54 years and had to learn that my husband comes first. I will be watching to see how you are doing. Dorothy