Ugh...is this a symptom of depression??
Just a little background info:
About a year ago, I got quite depressed due to an emotional heartbreak over a guy friend that I liked.
I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, could barely function at work, cried almost everyday, and just felt sad all the time.
Late last year, I started counseling due to the heartbreak, and issues in childhood w/my father, and that helped a lot. But I ended the counseling in April of this year thinking that I was "healed". Don't get me wrong, I STILL feel better than I did last year, but lately I've been starting to get the same feelings.
Just today I got in trouble with my boss because of something I forgot to do while she was away. It's like, I KNEW
what I was supposed to do, but I didn't do it!! I was too consumed with my own thoughts!! I'm so scared...I tihnk I'm going to get fired one day!
And it's all because I can't concentrate at work! I do my work, but I'm not doing it effectively. I keep going over the emotional turmoil and feelings of rejection with this guy friend who's not interested in me. I still have to see him every WEEK! It's like a constant reminder of rejection.
Don't get me wrong, some days I'm perfectly normal...other days (like around that "time") I'm an emotional wreck. Can't eat, can't concentrate...etc. I'm starting to wonder if maybe I have add or something! I dont' know....all I know is that there HAS to be a way to get better at concentrating WITHOUT taking prescription meds.
Does anyone go through this??? Anyone else here find it hard to concentrate or stay on a task for long? I just feel sooo out of it sometimes. I know people must think I'm dumb...but I know
I'm NOT dumb! I just feel like this stupid depression is keeping me from performing at my FULL potential (both emotionally, and mentally), and it's making me furious!
How do you get rid of this?? What makes concentration easier? Help...please!!