Hi skyy11, it's a fellow July mommy. Have you talked to your OB about postpartum depression? It's the secret no one talks about. I had no idea it would hit me so badly (I've suffered from depression in the past but it didn't compare to now). I've been taking Wellbutrin XL for weeks now, and I do feel better. But it wasn't just the meds. The baby's older, I've recuperated from the C-section, I'm not as sleep deprived, I gave up breastfeeding, etc. Lots of things have added to my feeling better.
Apparently it's so much more common than you would think. Shame, societal pressures, the desire to be perfect, the loss of your previous life and independence, and the drastic hormonal changes that occur at childbirth....they all add up to a potent cocktail of sadness and isolation.
Hang in there...the Paxil will kick in soon (mine took at least three weeks). If not, talk to your doctor about trying another medication. Good luck