Not sure what to expect on here but I get quite annoyed with myself. I have always been this way but I always feel quite bitter and twisted regarding other peoples good news.
Friends, work collegues or anyone - when they have some good news esp if I am jealous of it, I am secretly not happy. I don't know why as I should be happy for them but often find myself saying "That's great" through gritted teeth.
Obviously certain things I geniunely would be happy about like a couple I know who got pregnant after trying for a long time. However its things that affect me directly like if a friend got a better job or they are happy in a relationship and I wasn't.
I know its partly natural to have a little jealously but surely I shouldnt be happy when a friend or collegue is going through a bad time but it makes me feel better.
I just feel an awful awful person
