Hi , this is the first time Im admitting to being depressive, I think what I have is Dysthemia, I have been like this since my teens-(on & of)
In the past I have left a job because I lost it one day,y things are getting better but it doesnt help that my family is somewhat dysfunctional- my mother is depressive! The worst is on the outside Im mostly okay but suddenly it hits me and I feel so low!so depressed!I think it festrs inside and find myself sleeping less, eating terribly and I feel as if everyone else is doing better except for me,...
my husband is from another state, so we are struggling to find a balance between work and living together- he is my only grain of sanity at times, Life changed for me when I met him-(I was much worse when i was younger) but now I really want to do something about it.
At times I struggle so much so much! and I feel no one will understand, its as if I live a secret life. Most of this arises from my mother's/family's indifferent behaviour.
Im presently living with my mother since my husband is away-
to elaborate- she recently has stopped talking to me simply beacause I over reacted to something she said one morning.
I could not believe she would still treat me like this!! A few days later she was she was due for an operation to remove cataract from her eye...
With all the stress- being ignored by your own mother!!
I could not get sleep and was over-eating the night before,
In the morning I could not pull myself tgether and she just left with my dad!! I dont think if I had a daughter I would treat her like that, I would talk to her, but she just ignores me.
I desperately want to live life fully! Please tell me Im not crazy to be reacting like this, Im so depressed it makes me cry, I feel alone and vulnerable.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT][/SIZE][/LEFT]