I'm very sorry for your lost, it must have been very difficult on you and your family
. God helps you to get over it. Anyway, don't think that your life is the worst in the world. My life is bad but I'm sure it's not the worst, I have 4 injuries that need surgerical treatment and because I have no health insurance I can't have any of those surgeries. I live with my parents, although I'm 26, because I can't have a job (I can barely move around). I can't be with the only girl that I have ever loved, who will get marry anytime soon.
You can say that I have no future and no one will ever help me.
It's really a good thing that you love being a mother, ask him to bless your family and keep praying dear. For my depression I started prozac 20mg 2 days ago, hope this works for me.