Re: Is it depression or low self esteem??????
Even though you think your life is perfect, that has nothing to do with howw you feel.
It's not that you ARE physically alone. You're emotionally alone, where you feel trapped inside your mind. Where you can't express yourself. I understand completely(: You can't expect yourself to be happy, you can only be happy if others get you there. If it is self esteem issues one way to solve not appreciating yourself is to take a day BY YOURSELF, and just do whatever you want and be happy. If that means watching a movie nobody but you wants to watch, going shopping for yourself only, and getting your hair done by yourself. Find the joys of being alone and embrase them. It's a hard concept to grasp, but it's effective. Once you are okay with being by yourself, you'll begin to love yourself.
You might also have a lack of motivation, hearing about you wanting to stay home and just watch tv. You're a beautiful young women. You might want to look into getting a hobby. Kick boxing, scrap booking, reading, anything! Become a part of a group, that seems to help alot.
Hope I helped, Maddy(: