When I was in the hospital, I refused to go to my treatment conferance. I don't know if anybody else has ever been to a treatment conferance, but a room full of people telling me what was wrong with me, was not what I needed.
My husband did go though, and he has told me bits and peices about what was said in the room full of people.
First they were all ****** when I didn't show up. Then they discussed what to do with me.
They actually mentioned, ECT. Electroconvulsive Therapy! What the heck??? I didn't think they did that anymore. They also mentioned sending me to a long term care facility. I am so freaked out by these things.
It is not my fault that my brain does not work the way it should. I don't do this stuff on purpose. How could these things possibly help me? Luckily I have never actually attempted suicide or self harm. The doctor rejected both of these suggestions for now, but he told me straight out that if I ever hurt myself, he would have no choice but to send me into long term care. He totally refused the ECT thing, which I was relieved for that.
I am so scared that I will always be messed up. How do I get it right? I take my meds, I do my therapy, and I do the homework after counseling, so why am I still messed up. I HATE DEPRESSION!!!!!!!!!!
take care of you
bren<p>[This message has been edited by bmhalliday (edited 06-08-2001).]
Bren, hi. I'm sorry that I don't have any answers to your questions. Except to say that you're absolutely right, you don't do these things on purpose and it's not your fault. You are doing all the right things in fact. Just keep doing them and I am sure you will manage okay. I'm sorry you are still depressed despite all these measures, but don't give up on them, after all they are keeping you on track. take care won't you, and please don't beat yourself up.
Im sorry that happened. Thank goodness we live in todays age rather than twenty years ago, twenty years ago, it would not have been a question, you would have been locked up (with everyone else here). ECT from what I read is still used- but rarely. It is effective in some patients for several years at a time- other patients it does nothing for them.
Sweetie, just stay focused and strong. Thats all we seem to have. Better than any medecine or doctor is our own self determination!
Hi there sweetie!
If your doc is against the ect, do you know who mentioned it in the meeting? I went to something somewhat like that, but it was a hearing and it lasted 4 minutes because I decided to sign myself in to a VA hospital...
They can hospitalize you w/out your consent (you probably already know this), even for long-term treatment, but they can't do ect w/out your consent, for any reason other than extreme catatonia, and they have to get a court order to do that, and they talk to your conservator, etc (it can be easily obtained, though, like a search warrant).