Re: I need you guys to help me.
Well now....sounds like you got the short end of the stick alright.
The problems you have, except for the depression, I can't help you with or such mainly because I don't even know what they are.
But...the depression I can talk about and specificly I can talk about the shame and empty feeling left when you can't do the work that you want to and feel you should do.
That is a major cause of depression in men.
The way they tell it, men are what they do, in other words if they don't do anything or feel that they are doing right they feel like they don't amount to nothing. That they are nothing and have shame, guilt and depression. Guess WHAT !!! They are 100 percent CORRECT. How do I know that, you ask with a skeptical expession?
Because after working every day 10 to 12 hours every day including most weekends for over 30 years I had a number of things happen
to me that prevented me from working. They
all happened in the space of 6 months. I have not worked a lick since then. That was in the year of 1994...
Yes, I got depressed, very...like I did'nt even care if I got dressed or ate anything.
I would have most likly died or killed myself if it had not been for my kids.
So..yea I understand. I also understand that
your not taking anywhere enough Remeron to do you any good. You need to be taking 60 to 70mg daily for about 8 months at least.
Thats what it took me before my doc would cut it back to 30mg. Don't take it untill about 30 min before you got to bed.
Good luck and consider going back to school if you can (I don't know your physical condtiton) There are federal programs that help pay for re-education if you can't work your primary vocation for good reasons.