Hi there, I know how difficult it is to be in your situation and the dispair that you are feeling. Back in March I came home to find that my boyfriend of 7 years had moved all his stuff out and that he was leaving me. I was shocked, horrified, angry, hurt, sad all at the same time. I was depressed to begin with but things just got worse. A few days after that I had an accident at work that should have killed me(luckily I only had a few scratches and some pain) I just totally lost control of my life. I needed some help. I have a 7 year old daughter and I couldn't care for her because my depression imobolized me. I tried to put her in temporary care with a goverment organization but this just made my life worse. I had no family or friends as my ex was extremely abusive and would not permit these contacts. I was totally alone. I have my daughter back with me now but the battle is still going on. I saw a psych...he gave me a perscription of effexor 75mg and sent me on my way. Well, I became horribly ill and stopped taking it. I guess as the grief lessened and I started putting my life back together I started to feel a little better. I have friends and a supportive bf now. Unfortuantely, I learned, on Dec.20 that my mom's husband has been sexually assaulting my daughter and that just sent me into one of the deepest depressions of my life. I can barely function and have been given leave from work to get treatment. I am going to receive some treatment from an organization here that has a desire to treat the whole problem not just the environmental issues or biological ones.
I think that in time as you get over being abandoned and you meet some healthy people you will begin to feel a little better but I wouldn't understate what help docs can provide. Yes, some are pill pushers and don't give a damn but their are others who will honestly try to provide some relief. Anyway, take care.