I'm terribly sorry to hear about all of the pain and suffering that you have. It really does sound like more than one person should have to live with. In fact, I believe that while everyone here that has questions or issues may not appear to be suffering as much as others, that doesn't make their problems any less painful. I have to be honest with you, I'm mostly responding to something that you said in one of your posts. I don't know the exact quote, so please excuse me if I misread or misinterpretted your statement. At some point, you had noted that you have real medical problems, not just ones in your head. For many (if not all) depression is a medical problem. I can't speak for everyone obviously, but when I start to get sick, I can feel certain ailments that are absolutely not in my head. And if I hit bottom, I am physically unable to take care of myself. Partly due the inability to get out of bed and such. But it's mostly because I lose most of my motor skills and can no longer physically function. I can't drive, I move at a snail's pace, I talk funny and according to my parents I look like I'm taking qualudes and all of the little things that made me me were gone. I really was completely empty both mentally and physically when I was at my lowest. To me, I don't consider this to be all in my head. They are physical effects that can be just as debilitating as any other extreme medical condition. That's all I really felt that I needed to say. I guess your wording just brought up in me all the stigma and disbelief some people have when someone who suffers from depression stops going to work, getting out of bed or even leaving the house. Many people will never understand it unless they experience it for themselves. Actually, I can't even say that I understand it. Just as I may not completely understand any of your other medical issues. But what I do know, are my experiences. And if I think they might be helpful to someone else, then chances are I'll tell of them. My intentions are good, but that doesn't mean that my experiences are helpful. In the end, it's a person's personal responsibility to make their own decisions. But I'd like to believe that finding other people with similar experiences can provide a lot, regardless if there advice is helpful or not. For me, it's just comforting to know that there are people who understand, at least partially, some of things I've gone through and continue to go through. It just makes me feel less alone.
Well, it looks like I've rambled on about the topic. My apologies for the lenthy note. I do hope that you find those things that would make your life more comfortable, both physically and mentally. I wish you only the best.