I got through another day...I really HATE holidays.I'm so scared and confused. I sometimes think I am doing this all for attention. Do "normal" people think about different methods of suicide during the day, or stare for hours at the scars on their wrists from previous attempts? I'm tired of hospitalizations, and of ECT treatments.I'm really lost and scared.
Glad to hear you made it through another day. You can do this. Just keep making it through one day at a time and keep posting here. We are here to support you. Okay?
Did you go to that website? They have alot of different resources there.
For now, don't focus on why you're where you are--focus on getting yourself safe first. Then after maybe through therapy you can explore how you got to this place (need for attention,etc). You need to feel safe first. It is understandable that you are scared. When you don't know if you may do something to yourself, it is scary. I know, I have been there.
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Everybody needs attention. Heck, everybody needs to think they are even acknowledged as being worth getting some attention.
If you feel bad, or lonely or think of something you want to discuss or say, log on here and have at it. We all kind of keep an eye on this board and want to be in touch and help if we can.
One of the things that helped (helps) me when I really start beating myself up is to think of the people that care about me and how I would disappoint and hurt them if I did something stupid.
Also, weather permitting, get out in the sunshine and walk or run some everyday. Do something...clean, work on a project, something physical. Even if its only drawing, painting...do something. If your working which a lot of us can't, put forth your best effort,do the best job you can.
We'll be here....