Hi Gang,
I hope I haven't got on anyones nerves this week with any of my posts (I did change my mind about one of my posts but couldn't delete it, then some bouncing blobs got into my hard drive <IMG SRC="http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wink.gif">!!!!!(lol) <IMG SRC="http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/bouncing.gif"> <IMG SRC="http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/bouncing.gif">
Anyway, today I started replying to ffsmith as I think I can relate a bit to their feeling of misunderstanding with their psychologist, but I ended up writing a book, so I decided to write some of it here instead.
I didn't have a very unhappy childhood like some of the people here did, as I wasn't seriously molested or physically abused, but I did have a rather "unusual" childhood shall we say. Very briefly, it was characterised by deceit... my father was a serial womaniser, a verbal bully and extremely deceitful.
I might have bored some of you by now by mentioning the therapist I saw a few times, but basically I had a series of misunderstandings with him, which led to frustration and aggrevation on both our parts. I believe that a good therapist needs to be in control of their emotions, both positive and negative, in their relationship with their "clients", at least most of the time. But the therapist I saw was less than competent in that area, I feel. Put bluntly, he was verbally abusive.
I do believe that the vast majority of therapists are kind, caring, competent, sensitive and compassionate. I am in no way anti-therapist, and I do not want to put anyone off who may be considering therapy, or who is "in therapy" at the moment.
I realise that I was probably an extremely frustating "patient" at times. I do not blame the therapist who I saw, because as a (reasonably!!!) intelligent individual who has free will, I could have broken off the therapy at any time. Those of you who are familiar with "transference" however, might, like me, feel that things are not always so easy, although they are of course possible.
Anyway, I think that is enough waffle about me for now. I just felt like opening up a bit and sharing a bit of my story.
I hope you all have a great weekend!!!
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