jay84

I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm in so much pain that is preventing me from enjoying my family, friends, my life. I'm a stay at home mom with two wonderful kiddos. My daughter is 7 and my son is 8 months.

I had a rough pregnancy with both my children, but my son's was worse. I have major issues with my hip/back from a car accident 11 years ago. This last pregnancy I was basically bounded to a chair and unable to take care of anything with out being in extreme pain. After his birth, things got a little easier til he started growing and gaining weight. Now I can barely lift him off the floor or out of his crib.

I refuse to sacrifice my family and my time with them because of the pain, which in return makes me hurt worse. The doctors are trying to figure out what is wrong and how to fix it, but everyday is such a struggle to just do minor things that a stay at home mom enjoys doing.

I know there is a pain/depression cycle and I feel it is getting worse(my depression). I am on Celexa 40 mg a day and Ativan .5mg as needed. I find I have been taking more Ativan more often because I just can't get myself calmed down when the stress level and anxiety increases. I am one of those people that clean when they are stressed but because of the pain I am not able to do it.

Any suggestions from people would be wonderful. If not, maybe just venting and getting this all out will help.