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Old 04-21-2012, 08:05 AM   #1
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my body and mind always feel so fuzzy everyday. i feel as if i have taken a double dose of sleeping pills or i drank to much the night before or slept for 20 hours. my body always feels like this. i am really depressed but this is making it so much worse. my brain is fuzzy too. i cant think sort our thoughts i dont even have the mental capacity to make a grocery list and go shopping or sort our my finances or plan something. i dont do any drugs or drink. i just want to feel better. everyday is worse why do i feel like this.

 
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Re: fuzzy

Hello Twisted Metal.

I think depression certainly could be a cause of your symptoms. Have you talked to your doctor or a therapist about how you can feel better?

 
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i am depressed i know i am and i have been my entire life. but its getting worse now because i dont have hope. i used to have hope that things would get better but i havent got that anymore because i know it wort get better. i have been in and out of therapy here and there and i had to stop a few times because of insurance being canceled. i have my insurance back now but the only 2 therapy offices in my city that take my insurance have a 3 month waiting list so i am currently waiting to get back in. i want to go bad bad bad i just need someone to talk to and help me i dont have anybody in this whole world. i would love some meds i really think i need them. i know im not normal i know its not normal to feel like that. i dont know anybody who walks around feeling like they are on drugs like i do. its like im drunk and slow and stupid. im dumb now, ive always been kind of dumb but i can barely function everyday tasks. i cant wait to go back to therapy. i apreciate your reply. i would like to know if anyone else feels like this or ever has. everyday is miserable. im so shocked i havent killed myself yet. i attemted a few times but it was three times when i was 12, 15, and 19, im 24 now. i guess i do have hope or i would have done it already.

 
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Re: fuzzy

Hi,
Very unfortunate to hear about your physical symptoms.

 
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Re: fuzzy

Hi,
Very unfortunate to hear about your physical symptoms. One thing I can suggest here is for you to explain your life a little bit, like what you do normally, what your day to day life is. Your symptoms are alarming to be just depression. Perhaps even think about a time from which all this started. If it is depression that has suddenly started, then something might have triggered it. Do you think you can visit a simple doctor about your physical symptoms?
Let us know more. Thanks

 
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Hi,
Very unfortunate to hear about your physical symptoms. One thing I can suggest here is for you to explain your life a little bit, like what you do normally, what your day to day life is. Your symptoms are alarming to be just depression. Perhaps even think about a time from which all this started. If it is depression that has suddenly started, then something might have triggered it. Do you think you can visit a simple doctor about your physical symptoms?
Let us know more. Thanks
Thanks for replying and listening.
I think ive been depressed since i was like 8 because i didnt see my dad again till i was 15 and my mom is a verbally abusive psycho who let her boyfriends abuse me and my siblings as kids as we got older he just targeted me for some reason. That was just the begining, my whole life i have been depressed. Awful things have happened to me. Skip some of that because it would take all day to write. The latest horrific episodes: 4 years ago my mom's boyfriend who she let abuse us burnt her house down and car on fire with a motitle cocktail and a can of gas, with my mom, uncle, brother, and my grandma inside.They all made it out alive barely. No apology to me for always putting him before me. He's in jail for 13 years now for burning the house with them inside (i was in foster homes as a kid because social services said he wasn't alowd near me due to his abuse so mom stuck me in foster care instead of kicking him out, by the way stepdad was dad's best friend that mom was sleeping with behind his back. Dad was a violent alcoholic who walked out on us, no good guys here) and 3 years ago my boyfriend who i thought was going to save my life was cheating on me and left me for another girl. Then he gave all my naked photos and sex tapes i had made with him due to my low self esteem to some kid who hates me. That kid threw them all over the internet and emailed them to all my friends family and coworkers. Everyone i know has seen naked photos of me and videos of me having sex. o yeah between that my brother broke in me and that boyfriends apartment stole everything i owned laptop ps3 flatscreen tv ps3 games, mom didn't care. She gave my brother everything she never gave me. She never did a damn thing for me. After that i found my dad dead in his recliner in his house. All his room mates were completely trashed it was a nightmare with me completely alone as they took him out in a body bag. I called mom and my brother but neither really cared. My brother only saw the guy 3 times after he was 5 years old, and my mom didn't care for him much these days. O yeah i was pregnant when i found dad dead and i had a miscarriege the next week. my fourth miscariege. all of this i am saying happened from when i was 20-24. I was also raped twice. I also got really bad into drugs from 19-22. And i worked in a resturaunt from 19-24 where i was treated like garbage by my co workers and boss's who called me names and always yelled at me. It didn;t help when some kids informed them all and showed them all my sex videos. I guess the main thing that threw me in depression was my sex videos all over the internet believe it or not, which i still deal with because the kid who hates me constantly sends them to people i know and constantly uploads them to websites that include my first and last name and my city. Well about a year ago i was starting to feel better. I was in therapy and on anti depressents, I was starting to build the best relationship i could with my mom and brother despite the past and the way they are, and i was coming to terms with dad's death, that;s when strange stomach issues hit me. I am constantly bloated and constipated and feel full and bloated after eating 3 bites of food. I am now assuming it's Irritable Bowel Syndrome from stress. It won't go away i have tried everything and seen many doctors who can't help me. Also all my joints swell up fingers wrists toes knees jaw, which i also assume is from stress. So it was at the point when i was trying to come to terms with my past and start to be happy for the first time in my life that these awful stomach symptoms started and i have now been dealing with that for a year and it has thrown me right back into depression. I now have no hope, which is all i ever had. I don't see a happy future for me at all because my stomach hurts everyday and i can't eat. It has made me so depressed and made all the other things in the past come back. Now i don;t even talk to my mom or brother and you know what they don;t care they don;t chase me because they don't care, i was the one trying to rebuild our awful relationships. So now all i do is go to work and go home and stay home and cry ever day. I try to eat and it sucks trying to eat because it hurts, i do eat though. I am so dumb now i think because of all my depression i can't concentrate. i got out of that awful restaurant where i was treated like garbage and work in a nursing home., but i'm not good im always daydreaming depressed not caring about anything. then i go home and cry. I am a very very sad person. i have no hope, the point where i was finally starting to get over everything was when this horrible stomach thing started and now i have no hope at all.

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Re: fuzzy

Hi again. It is good to see that you are writing stuff down. Painful as it is, actually seeing it all in print does help with the process. Get on that waiting list, you have been struggling on all this time, another three months is not so bad. In the meantime, keep your journal, write every day, chart your worst moments and your better moments. As to your stomach, Stress can certainly cause these symptoms, but if possible go to a doctor or ER and get it checked out. You do not need any more problems than you are coping with. Speaking of coping, I still feel that your strength and spirit will get you through this. Once you are along a bit in your therapy, you might consider what other posters have suggested, and start again somewhere else.
Keep as active as you can, a long slow walk can do wonders. Your fuzziness and "damping down" are your mind's way of protecting yourself from pain. Like wrapping your emotions in cotton wool. Don't be in too much of a hurry to rip it away. The trouble is that the protection has to damp down the good emotions as well, so you don't get much joy while you are in this state. Therapy will help you to lift off the cotton wool by degrees, as much as you can cope with at any given time.
Write to us here as often as you like, there is always someone here to respond.
Keep strong, Sera.

 
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Re: fuzzy

Hi,
Seems like your life has thrown a lot of crap towards you. At least now though you are functioning to an extent and as mentioned earlier it seems good that you are writing these thoughts down.
One thing though you need to consider is that you are moving forward and you are in control of how you move forward. Also in my opinion, you need to get away from where you are these days. Save up, keep yourself going, head for a new target and stick to a target you feel you can achieve for your life or at least the next few months.
Keep us informed about your activities. Thanks

 
Old 05-09-2012, 04:26 PM   #9
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Thankyou so much for the support. I was feeling a little better the past three days. Now my car's broken so it's another bunch of stress thrown at me i have no money to fix it and no way to get to work. At work today i started feeling this way again all fuzzy and fainty and i wasn't able to eat much at all yesterday i had some spinach and mushrooms and was in so much pain. At work i was so out of it people were talking to me i was just staring with a dumb look on my face trying to comprehend what they were saying feeling like i was high on drugs and feeling like i had been over eating and binging when i had practically nothing to eat in days. Just sucks so much i'm so miserable. I'm really skrewed now too if i cant fix my car. i ordered some probiotics i heard they can be good for healing IBS issues if that's really what i have. i wont mind walking a a half mile to the bus stop and waking up an hour earlier to get to work if my stomach would just feel better and id stop feeling so fuzzy and fainty. I don think id be able to wlak that far in the state im in now i wish i could fix my car and fix my stomach then i could start to try to move on and feel better about all my other issues.

 
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Well seems like you are putting a determined front in facing your current issue. Think about having a proper meal to walk to the bus stop and hence saving money to fix the car. At least youl get energy and the drive to fix your car. Avoiding eating is a way of avoiding life, something I have before and it works to an extent where it feels as though you are in control of how you want to do things even though you get physically drained.
Well good luck in managing yourself till the car gets fixed. Thanks

 
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Well seems like you are putting a determined front in facing your current issue. Think about having a proper meal to walk to the bus stop and hence saving money to fix the car. At least youl get energy and the drive to fix your car. Avoiding eating is a way of avoiding life, something I have before and it works to an extent where it feels as though you are in control of how you want to do things even though you get physically drained.
Well good luck in managing yourself till the car gets fixed. Thanks
i feel sick when i eat... food sits with me like cement, a cup of yogurt feels like thanksgiving.... well thanks for listening, and cant save money to fix my car i make just enough money to pay my bills and rent i never got a head start i was thrown on my own to young i had to work work work just to live wish i had been able to live with my family and go to college like everyone else

 
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