I can not TAKE IT ANYMORE, and don't know where to turn?! Getting Really Embarrassed
Hi All,
Allot of you know me from previous threads, I feel like I just can't take it anymore. With my mothers dementia, and her not wanting to talk to me, my sister whom lives with her hides stuff about mom's health to me, but at least she is giving mom her medications.
I got mom set up with grocey shopping for I am now back to work full time, and worry about her constantly, but she is always putting me down and makes me feel so insecure. She was like that befor her diginosis.
My family is not one's that I can turn to and have been on many Antidepressats, Now Viibird. Was praying this was the one for me.......heard so many good things about it........but feel like it is doing the opposite. I have severe anxiety, depression is rock bottom, no motivation, and I eat well, try to exercise, etc.
Pls. I know I need medication, for I have fought depression for 20 soemthing years, and the only real medication that helped was Lexapro and it gave out over time. I am at the lowest mood I have ever been in, arguing with my husband over stupid stuff..........and afaid to talk to my docotor about this, for she has tried me on many, many antidepressants. I am stuck.
I worry constantly. And have blurred vision, and dizzy and don't know if it is the medication making me feel worse, two weeks @ 20mgs. of Viibird. I just want to ball. I am so hard on myself and can't get out of this rutt. NO, I am not thinking of ending it, just never felt so low in my life. Scard to say anything to my doctor but don't know if it is my med, and OMG, the anxiety had gone through the wall, were I am having panic attacks while driving, and have to pull over, and I CAN'T Do this, I have to work........I am also on Klonoplin, but only take when needed. Up to my max right now from all the stress in my life. I need your help..........I just can't take this anymore.
Called my doctors office and she is out til next Monday. I am thinking of slowlly cutting back off the Viibrid..........but only been two weeks........I just want to crawl in a ball and cry. I used to so positive about everything, but been having negative thoughts, and even pondering over my father passing that was 16 years ago, he was my buddy............my true friend, and now mom. I have a very stressful job, But so very thankful god had put me back in the workforce. I know I need to see a specalist, but OMG, just don't feel at ease with that..........what should I do.........? I am scard, sad, dizzy, and my anxiety is out of this world. I can't keep living like this. Where do I turn to? All I have is you all, I can't talk to my mother about this for she has her own health. I am misrable, not harmful to myself, but very sad, and nothing seems to make me happy............even shopping, YEP, the thing I love the best..............please.........anyone. ........
Re: I can not TAKE IT ANYMORE, and don't know where to turn?! Getting Really Embarra
I just don't know what medication to try anymore, or what? I have a low tolerance to meds, and would NEVER ABUSE ANY..........basically hate them, but know I am weak and will need always need them............
Re: I can not TAKE IT ANYMORE, and don't know where to turn?! Getting Really Embarra
You are sure having it tough. Please don't put yourself down for needing to be on medication, you have an illness. Is there a mental health line you can call (like the Samaritans)? You do need someone to talk to when you get this upset. I hope it soon passes - it will, nothing stays the same. Sera
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Thank you!
I am going to talk to my dr. about seeing a specalist or referrering me to one. I can accept all this at one time..........just too much, and think the medication might be part of it.
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I am sorry, I don't know what you mean?
Bless you so much..........It is just so hard for me most part seeing a beautiful mother ..........well, with the disease.........very hard to swollow.............trying to prepare my self...........but just don't have the power...............
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I am sorry, I don't know what you mean?
I was referring to other methods used to treatment depression when anti-depressants aren't successful. I'm sure your doctor could explain these methods better than I could.
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Originally Posted by himmylover
I am sorry, I don't know what you mean?
Bless you so much..........It is just so hard for me most part seeing a beautiful mother ..........well, with the disease.........very hard to swollow.............trying to prepare my self...........but just don't have the power...............
Himmylover
When things get to the point that you feel too overwhelmed,take a deep breath,walk around the block,play your favorite song but above all else,try not to let things get the better of you.
Some of these work or at least use to work for me in the past.
Keep posting and stay strong.
Serious Respect
Phoenix
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Thank you very much.
I am off today and tomorrow, and going to wiat for dr's office to call me, and see about Lexarpo. I had success in the past then it gave out on me, but seem the only one I could tolerate..........don't tolerate meds very well.
I am going to get out today befor it hits 100 plus here and then exercise on the treadmill.......going to make myself..........I have too.
I so thank you all for being here, I love helping people and so glad their are people here to help me when I need it so......
Re: I can not TAKE IT ANYMORE, and don't know where to turn?! Getting Really Embarra
Quite possible that you need some kind of addition to the new med. I used to take Klonopin with my Cymbalta and getting off of a benzo (Klonopin) and started with Seroquel was the best thing in the world. Benzo's are so often the first thing a Doc will go to for anxiety but they are EVIL. Don't just stop the Klonopin on your own though. EXTREMELY IMPORTANT!!! you have to be tapered off by the Doc or risk serious side effects namely seizure then death. Hope this helps
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What worked for me, was seeing a homeopathic doctor. One of our big hospitals had a homeopathic unit. They look at person as a whole and go from there. Maybe it was the feeling of trust or the natural medicines but sure helped a lot when I had a lot going on health and family wise. I hope this option is open to you. Take care that the doctor you choose is properly medically qualified as over here, anyone can do homeopathy without qualifications.
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Can this kind of dr. precribe medicications, IF needed? I think the Viibrid is very evil, it has really messed up my system up, but will take it one day at a time. Definately looking for a dr. then has a background in mental, anxiety, depression, and yes the dreaded Panic Attacks.
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My doctor worked in our National Health Service and in private practice. Could issue prescriptions but only within homeopathic guidelines.
Perhaps your own doctor or local hospital could put you in touch with someone. Be aware that not all 'normal' doctors agree with alternative medicine and some will positively argue against it. Please don't let it put you off but be aware there are many charlatans out there pretending to be qualified homeopaths. Check out certificates claimed and/or posh initials after their name with the relevant institution or issuing exam board. Don't take on face value. Ok?
Take care. BTW You've already shown some spirit by coming on here and sharing.
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Hi-I suffer from severe depression and it's evil twin anxiety as well. I saw my Dr. about a week ago and he added a very low dose of Adderall to what I already take. I also take Klonopin for anxiety. He told me this might affect my anxiety,but so far I have been ok. I actually want to get out of bed,before I had to get out of bed and I waited until the last possible minute. Just a thought,maybe it's something you could think about. For now please keep your head up and try to think happy thoughts-Christina
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Hi yes I'm actually on Effexor er which is supposed to help both depression and anxiety. The adderall had not messed with my anxiety so far (I understand that can be a risk) but I hear the key is to to build up. My Dr. had mentioned it and I found other people on this board also did it and felt very comfortable trying it. My depression was a bit more severe and I thought if I got control of one maybe the other would fall in line. I'm one of those people Effexor works for just not 100%.My Dr also gave me Atarax which is supposed to be non-addicting to also help with daily anxiety and to use the Klonopin for major...I hope this helps-Christina : )
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U have been a great help. My dr. did express for it was WEIGHT NETURAL, are you seeing any weight gain/lose on Effexor and it is working with Adderall? Wow, Just neeed to get all my ducks in line, I am waiting to see what my insurnce covers as far as a counslor, Psyc, or what ever else might be available.
I just go through this alone anymore.
God Bless Queen, In my eyes you are.
Hugs.
D
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Hi-I've lost some weight on the Effexor,but the main thing to me is I have not GAINED. It does seem to keep my appetite under control too,which helps a great deal. I don't think anyone really gets depression unless they have it. They try to and that makes it even worse.My husband didn't understand why I couldn't get out of bed but he did have enough sense to say "she needs help". I am lucky in the sense he took the take me "as I am" part of our vows to heart,because I have alot of broken pieces. Look I've rambled on enough,I do hope anyone who feels the need to ever talk reaches out. I need to take me own advice,maybe this weekend i'll post what's been bothering me-Christina
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OMG, that is so funny, the theme to my wedding was by : Bryan Adams, EVERYTHING I DO, I DO IT FOR YOU. I am scheduled to see a therapist, and hope they get get me lined up..........I am lucky to have a husband that does understand, with my mom's dementia, stress and Panic is way out their, and the depression so much comes with it.........
Pls. do write me if you can, we can work things out together.......
I can not TAKE IT ANYMORE, and don't know where to turn?! Getting Really Embarrassed 
