| | Is there still hope?
I'm 18 years old I dropped out of high-school when I was a freshman, I've been cooped up in my room for years now. I only got clean six months ago but I don't feel any better because I haven't bettered my life at all. I still feel as low as I aways have. I'm always so sad. Lately I've been wanting to go back on zoloft. But I feel like it will be a huge step backwards. I just feel out of options. Im ashamed and I fee pathetic because I can't even force myself out of bed most days. I've gotten so weak standing up in the shower or waking down the stairs is exausting. I don't eat much, I have horrible insomnia, I hardly ever shower anymore and I never see the sunlight. I wake up just as the sun goes down and fall asleep as its coming up.
I've never had a real job, I have no more friends. I'm incredibly lonely and so scared.
How can I ever fix this hole I dug myself into? I realize I'm young and I have plenty of time to figure things out but that's not helping me now if I never take the first step. I just don't even know were to start or what direction to go in.....
I want to be happy. I'm tired of being broke... I just wish I wasn't so scared.I've been hurting so much lately.. I've posted here before but I never feel any better. I get such good advice but I still have no friends to keep my strong.