Re: Severe depression after a breakup
Hello Duke, and welcome, we are glad you are here with us. I hope you will find lots of understanding and encouraging people here to listen. As you mentioned, the act of simply putting your feelings down on to "paper" can be very therapeutic in itself. If you can garner some support and kind words, even better. Just by jumping right in and putting yourself out is a very positive move on your part, even though you might feel it is out of despair and depression. One thing most of us can relate to is a broken heart, as we have all had at least one in our adult lives, if not many more. They are never easy, and never without allowing ourselves to go though the process fully. For most, that means doing the time it takes to change our habits and expectations.
It is unfortunate you do not have access to medical services, as I am sure you could benefit from counseling and other forms of therapy for depression, after a thorough examination and diagnosis. You still have the ability to fight your way through, and I would go kicking and clawing my way back to happiness, if it were me. Simply do not allow yourself to be overcome by this event in your life. You are certainly worth every bit of effort it takes to pull yourself back into the game.
I do not know how your relationship with your parents is, but you are staying with them, which might indicate you have a pretty good relationship. Are they someone you can confide in about the depth of your depression? Perhaps they could help provide you with some help, if you can open up to them. it they are like most of the parents I know, they would likely do anything to help you when you are in need. Seek the help you need from any possible resource, that is a sign of strength, as opposed to the opposite, as many people think.
The more that you practice making yourself feel a bit better, the more you realize that the depression can be lifted, if even for just a minute, with small effort.
Our attitudes are something only we can control, and to practice boosting our own attitudes when needed is a great tool to ward off depression. This is not to say that a clinical depression can be thwarted by a great attitude, but it can go a long way in breaking up long stretches of misery that is left unchecked.
I encourage you to keep posting so we can get to know you better, and you can share your struggles with us, to keep your mind free of all the stress and pain you have been carrying. We all need someone to offer an ear when we need to let our feelings go...We are always here to do that.
Look forward to hearing back from you with your thoughts.
Last edited by writeleft; 11-14-2012 at 11:30 PM.