| | Severe crying attacks
yesterday night I ended up in hospital and I still don't know what's exactly wrong with me...
Since about a year and a half I have these crying attacks. At first they weren't that often, like once a month or so. Recently, since about three months they became way more often and severe. Now it happens once or twice a week and every time they're worse and worse... Last night I couldn't stop crying for over three hours and I had so much anger. I threw my laptop across the room, then my phone and the table as well... Finally I was about to end up my life by taking an overdose, but my boyfriend was there and, for sure, he didn't let me even though I begged him so much.
He called the doctor, they took me to hospital. I talked with a psychiatrists, he gave me some Valium and let me go home. For the moment I no longer feel like suicidal, but I'm sure that I'm going to have another attack sooner or later...
What is it that's happening for me? It doesn't look like a regular depression case, because I don't feel constantly sad... Sometimes I'm happy for a week, and than suddenly I'm down.
It first started when I was in sexually abusive relationship with my ex-boyfriend, then I had abortion, but this was like over a year ago... I doubt if this could be the reason why I'm feeling that bad now.