Hello Health Boards I am new here.
I would like to state that I have multiple problems which I think is caused by depression, so I posted it in this section of this forum.
Keep in mind that I have had these problems for a long, long time. Currently I am 15, turning 16 in March. My mum passed away about 5 months ago which I think may be my problem.
I will start from the beginning when all of the problems started. When I was 9 my farther bought me a PlayStation 1 for Christmas. He got me a game that made me incredibly addicted to. I use to play it 5-6 hours a day, even school nights. I caused many fights between my parents about my addiction. My mother hated the thing and wanted it gone but my farther was to kind and got me anything that I wanted. Over the years my 5 hours went to 9 hours to about 14 hours average and even 27 hours straight I have done playing video games.
When I was about 11 years old, my mothers closes sister (My aunt) which I incredibly loved and saw her as another mother, died with a heart attack. Just about 1 month before I parents split up and my farther cheated on my mother. I stayed strong for my mother and every night for 2 years I herd my mother cried her self to sleep. I started to become fat then obese, I ate healthy but I did lack of excise. After that event, my mother notice that I was nodding my head and tensing my left side of my neck to my jaw. I would hum nearly every 30 minutes just slightly. I could help doing it but after awhile I stop noticing it and I still keep on doing it. When I try to stop my self doing it, my right temple feels like someone is pressing on it and my left side of my neck and shoulder feels weird. I had this for about 2 months and they went away for about a year and it came back for about 1 month and disappeared. This will happen every year.
I am not good at school, I am a D and C student. I have plenty of friends but "Publicity" has hit them and now they have "Better" friends then me. I wouldn't blame them when I never go outside unless someone invites me but I usually always make an excuse to not to go or to go to school. I get paranoid about groups of people and women. If I even hear someone laugh by a girl or a group. I put my head down in shame, even though in my back of my mind it is not true and they are not even looking at me.
As I said before I am a D and C student. I am great with computers and I get A's for every computer subject I choose and I don't even listen or research and I am really good at making plans and doing strategies things such as word searches. But I can do anything else, I have a 11 year old spelling age on paper.
So please if anyone could help me to what to do. Sorry for my whole story of my life -___- but I need to talk to someone about it. Thanks.
Edit: I also forgot that I have trouble sleeping. I am always tired and I wake up at 3pm and go to sleep at 5am.
