Hello, everyone. I'm just looking for a little feedback about a recent change in feelings.
Last year, I turned 30. Around that time, I started to feel like a significantly different person. Normally, I am a relaxed, mostly positive person. I've never really been super-energetic, but I've considered myself pretty cheerful for the most part. As of a few months ago (around the time I turned 30), and usually just once in a while, I'd start to feel less and less cheerful. Things that normally wouldn't bother me started to bother me a lot. Stupid little things would make me angry. Irrelevant things. Like there was a box in the hallway, and it was in my way. I usually hid it pretty well and I would never yell or get violent, but some people have noticed I seem grumpy all the time, which is kind of out of character for me. And it would only take a few of these types of irrelevant things to make me break down and cry. I haven't really talked to people about it. One night, I cried for about an hour for no reason. My wife and I talked about it for a little while and I felt somewhat better. I haven't gotten that low in a couple of months. But I still feel like a different person sometimes and it's a little disconcerting.
I've never really thought I had depression, but I'm starting to think I might. I do feel like I might have anxiety issues, but they're pretty mild. Two people in my family have diagnosed depression. For my job, I work the night shift at a place where I usually have no one to talk to and often have nothing to do. And lately, I've been working stupidly-long 14-hour shifts. Maybe that's a factor. I don't know.
In any case, I'm just here to see what you folks think. I'm kind of at a loss and am too chicken to talk to someone in person. Thank you in advance.
The following user gives a hug of support to bmb1957: Phoenix (01-10-2013)
At first,I was thinking that you may have what I call goal/age-oriented depression,brought on when a person reaches a certain age and hasn't realized their goals.
You stated though,that depression runs in your family and you're working longer hours.
Either one of these or both could be contributing to the way you presently feel.
One thing you can do is have a physical and make sure your blood work is within normal limits.This will rule out a lack of minerals and/or vitamin deficiency.
Try to think back;when your symptoms began occurring.....was it around the time you began working longer hours?
Something to think about.
Thank you for your reply.
To answer your question about hours, I think I may have been working long hours then as well, but it's hard to remember for sure. I typically work 4 10-hour shifts per week, but if someone can't come in, that often changes to a 13 or 14-hour shift. So it's possible that was part of the equation.
In any case, I think your suggestion to get a physical is a good idea. I haven't had one in years, so who knows what's going on inside.