most days I wake up feeling miserable. I am constatntly beating myself up for "settling" for a marriage and choosing this life that I didn't really want. I have no friends here (I moved to be with my husband who I don't love) and have been here for 3 years. we have a son (1 year old) who I love but he doesn't deserve a bitter and unhappy mother. I wish I could erase the last 3 years of my life and go back to my old life where I was single, had possibilities and lived in a place I liked. I am stuck and miserable. I try small things to improve my situation but I am just sad in general and don't look forward to my life
what led to you being with this man in the first place?
I thought that the security that he offered would make me happy. I thought that he was enough and I thought I'd like living here, I had no idea the nightmare that this place would really be. I thought that I couldn't get any better and my old life wasn't sustainable.
Do you have friends where you are at?, Some one you can confide in, somebody you can trust?
I don't have any friends here, certainly not any close friends. Besides, I try not to complain to much about how much it sucks here to people that already live here. They all know anyway, and are stuck here too. And I don't want to burden my old friends, anyway they tell me to try to stay positive. It would be nice to have someone to talk to about it, but I don't feel there is anything I can do about my situation