Hi I'm New Here
Hello this is my first time posting here. I've never tried to reach out for help before, but I'm realizing I have so many problems I need too. I wasn't sure what health board to post under because I have so many issues.
Maybe someone knows who I can talk to for free help online, because I'm 28, 29 in 2 months and I'm unemployed living at my parents house.
The funny thing is things were just getting better. I had finally found a good paying job, after 2 years of minimum wage retail jobs. I ended up getting laid off while I was suffering from a severe case of the flu. So I found out having a 40 hour a week job is crucial to my mental health.
I've had problems with pain killers, but I quit those and went to a methadone clinic. My girlfriend died on July 26, 2011 from a hereditary kidney disease(MPGN). Ever since she's been gone my depression or anxiety has been sky high. We met online, talked for 5 months, finally met, and moved in with each other after about 1-2 months. I take losing her so hard because not only was she filling my girlfriend role, she was actually my best friend. It's been almost 2 years and my parents think I should be over it, but it's hard when your sitting at home everyday watching TV unemployed. Even when I had those minimum wage retail jobs I would get 8-16 hours a week if that. But even that helped me mentally.
I could go on and on about my issues. I haven't cleaned my room since she died. And just sitting at home on my behind 24 hours a day is just old. I go for a walk/jog in the morning, exercise, but I'm just not happy.
I'm not happy in the way for example if I feel like just dying. But I think thinkin like that is for cowards. All I know is I got issues, haha. Never thought I'd ever be like this.
Last edited by mod85; 03-24-2013 at 07:03 PM.