ISO Community Support

Hello,
I saw my therapist today for my ongoing anxiety and depression. She suggested that I become more active in sites like these in order to develop a sense of community around my anxiety and depression issues.

A year ago this week I was dumped by the man I thought I would marry after 3 and a half years. I've had years of anxiety and panic attacks prior to this, but it seems that the daily struggle with anxiety has worsened since the end of the relationship. My therapist has helped me to see that I don't want my ex back, but that I do miss the things that go with being in a relationship. I'm 32 and fear that I've lost my only chance at love. But when I think about dating, love with someone new, etc, I have a great rush of anxiety and panic. I'm terrified of the future and what it does or doesn't hold for me. Thoughts and memories of the past flood my head and haunt me. How do I live in the present? The daily, ongoing panic attacks are debilitating. I'd love some feedback and look forward to becoming more involved in this community.

Hi Lexi! I've recently signed back into this site myself. I too need to stick with this site more, even on my good days. I'm so sorry about how you feel. Going to therapy is great! I can't wait to go back to mine, as my sessions have been on holidays. In the weeks prior to those, she rearranged her schedule to see me. Although I don't have the long term relationship behind me, I crave love. I crave to be with someone in every way possible. I can't find it; and I don't know how. Today is New Year's Eve, the hardest day for me. I've been sick during my vacation which isn't helping my spirits. Today is the day I feel the loneliest. I'm going to try very hard today to change my negative thoughts. I try so hard to think of all the sad/negative things in this world that occur everyday. Maybe that's something I'm trying for 2015. I've had the flu/bronchitis since the day after Christmas. This definitely wasn't how I wanted to spend my vacation. I feel I've become part of the Criminal Minds family...lol. Do you have plans tonight or are you ignoring it like me? Always a tough time of year. Do you have thoughts on how you want to move forward?

Hi Lexi! Either it's the antibiotics or I'm really losing it. My brain just realized we've been responding to each other on both posts. I'm really not that absentminded. What a "duh" moment. I hope you are hanging in there today. I just lost it with my mom, who I hate to lose it to b/c I know she worries about me so much. I'm so down.