I've struggled since very early childhood with an eating disorder (compulsive overeating, binging, emotional eating, habitual eating - started very very young). So, yes, major weight problems here.
Type 2 runs in my family. I figured one day I'd probably get it, but nobody in my family gets it until they're in their 40s or later. I'm not yet 30. But I still think I probably have it. I'm having some pretty hard-to-ignore symptoms. Extreme, excessive thirst
that is pretty much non-stop. I always have to carry water with me and have it by me even at night in bed. The thirst NEVER goes away.
Also, just feelings of sometimes despite my eating disorder, actual hunger even after I've already eaten. (I recognize the differences of when I'm emotionally or binge eating without being hungry as opposed to actual hunger signs)
I have very dry skin, dark dry skin patches, very dry lips (Need lip balm lots every day), just lots of things. Now, I do have hypothyroidism, but it is NOT the cause of my weight problems. It COULD contribute to the dry skin though. I'm supposed to go to a lab for a quick blood test just for thyroid again soon to see if I need my med increased. Might be.
But I just feel that it's very likely despite my age, that I have type 2. And I'm afraid to bother with going to the doctor. I mean, my lifestyle is unhealthy and I always worry and figure I'll die much younger then I should, but have not been able to fight my eating disorder successfully at all.
So I feel like, what's the point of getting an official diagnosis when I know what they'll say? They'll say, diet, lose weight, get excersise. I may be able to slowly put in more physical activity but the changing my eating styles and losing weight isn't something I can magically do or do as easily as most people seem to be able to. (Okay, not easily, but my food addiction is so deeply imbedded into who I am, it makes it feel impossible!)
So am I doomed? I mean, if a heart attack won't get me by the time I'm like 40, then my blood sugar levels probably will. What can I do? I'm trying my best to work on the eating disorder. Haven't been able to find much support or help there.
So is there nothing I can do if I have diabetes other then suffer ridicule and criticism for my eating habits and for letting myself be ill? I guess I won't find answers, but I have to keep searching.
It is VERY hard for me to come out and admit all of this in such a public forum, so although I fully appreciate feedback, please TRY to be gentle. I'm having a very hard time right now and telling me things like,"Yep, you'll die young if you don't stop eating like a pig." Will NOT help and is just hurtful and useless.
Thank you for your time.