Oh honey.. I have been where you are. Still am to a point. I learned a big lesson one day. I had heard about how diabetes would hurt me down the road and it was a matter of control. I heard "Either you control it or it control's you" until my head hurt. I have had 3 diabetic pregnancies so I was taking 12 blood sugars a day and seeing my OB twice a week. THEN going in for fetal monitoring. I thought they were all just making this huge deal out of something simple.
Then my oldest daughter wasnt feeling good. I decided to take her sugar and it was 380! Talk about going nuts. In the course of a few hours of waiting on an appt with her Ped, I had developed a menu, decided we were going to fight this, and decided that diabetes would NOT control her life.
Turned out to be a glitch in my monitor and her blood sugar was less than 100. But now why would a mother have little regard for her own care but fight like a lion when it came to her child??? It comes down to love. I love my children and will be their biggest healthcare advocate when it is all said and done. Now, I just need to love myself and do the same thing. You dont let it control you by staying on top of it. It becomes second nature and ends up taking less of your life. Yes, people die of other things so being in panic mode over the slightest high is just a nightmare. You have to take it all into perspective and do the best you can. You will have a really good day and turn around and have a bad one. Your goal is for the good ones to outweigh. You may still get complications but when the day is done, you wont add to that the guilt that you didnt do all you could. Good luck
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Mindy

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