alabamawhirlyuk81

Hi again I've just about lost all hope I've just had a barium meal done "nothing"
I'm 21, dont drink, dont smoke
I have heart burn 24/7! I was on ranitidine till it stopped working and now laprozanine "sumit like that lol I ran out and there taking there time on the repeat prescription so I've forgot the name" But it sounds like that!
Ok here it is I think this all happened when I was young I drank wart remover at 1 but dont think thats it because I was a really healthy child till I was 8 where talking all the sports days winner "not kidding."
Then bang I was really chubby, sick and tired all the time.
Ok so what happened when I was 8? well I had my throat crushed by my uncle ******* lost his temper just because I was playing he picked me up by my neck and squeezed "that ****ers got an arm on him!" No hospital appointment! After that when I jumped out of a tree or a wall flat "not bending my legs." I would feel sharp pain in my groin its kind of around the prostate area. Plus I remember peeing being hard from then on "me and my cuisin used to have **** wars with the door open now I have to be in a cubicle and know no ones there and then consentrate! But I can barely pass much urine anymore and I have to go very fruenquently.
Latley though I have also notice that when I burp "I burp a hell of a lot now." I want to throw up the urge was always there but I don't like throwing up much! Well a few days ago I tested what would happen if I let myself. Well it comes out in small doses of mostly liquid first but It will empty my whole stomach it just takes hours and when this happens I'm aware of this hard lumpy feeling in my throat around my chest, like when somethings stuck and it the same feeling I get when I eat and drink which is often why I eat large amounts fast or drink large amount fast, my body just tries to clear it but it can't.
I have no energy anymore plus I'm 16 and a half stone and I look 14 I'm afraid I have a large cancer or growth aswell its just that over the years I have lost all faith in docters. They just bully me into waiting too long and I can't talk back I went in a week ago for test results and ask for a mri for my neck and the doc said medicine is holistic and said to see my usually docter "Who was on holiday!" so I asked if I could see a stomach specialist which had been promised me if I had the barium meal. Again ask your previous Dr. Well what does it take to say yes and just book the appointments "I mean I could see my normal docter with the results, couldn't I?!" The new docter seemed more than happy to give me my reults of a negative test but not order more hmmmm. I just feel like cutting these days life is a blur the only reason I slog on is my girlfriend who I love more than anything if not I don't think I would be here today its a walking nightmare. I have a pain threshold thats through the roof yet the tiniest little emotional thing will make me cry histericly I'm a wreck!

I just hope someone out there has been through similar sircustances because I dont know what test to ask for.

I have cut everything out of my diet at one point of another, wheat, dairy, gluten and meat plus aspertame MSG basicly I was drinking water and eating veg and fruit having heart burn 24/7 and feeling weaker than an 80 year old alcaholic!

Please I guess I'm just freaking out becasue everyone who can help isn't helping and I just feel very alone.

thanks I'll try and cheer up though in the mean time but I just find it hard these days! buh bye