Marcia, thank you so much for replying to my post. You will not believe how you have calmed me down. You are right in saying it is the "unknown" and what to expect that scares me.
I even was saying "yes" out loud when you mentioned about the churning burning. That darn burning never seems to end does it?
Two years ago I applied for SS but was denied. This time around though I have gone further than before. If I remember correctly I was denied almost right away. So I guess that I am happy that they are sending me to see their doctor. Also the difference now is that RSD has spread so badly. There are days that I just cannot even walk. And I try to keep moving. I am taking beginning Yoga four evenings a week to help with strength and flexibility. But still there are days that I am in too much pain and my legs are just too weak to work. It can down right be scary when they get so weak. I am even afraid that I may fall because they won't carry me anymore. And I am not a real heavy person either.
I will make sure to tell this doctor just how much RSD has changed me. I was teaching and training student teachers in child care at our technical college for 22 years and now there is no way I would be able to return to work. I have not worked for two and half years. Golfing use to be a passion of mine and now I can't even golf. I also have carpal tunnel in both of my wrists but I refuse to have surgery because of the risk of the RSD spreading.
Sometimes I just cry when I think how much my life has changed. And it's not just mine life but my husbands as well. I get depressed just thinking about the burden I must be for him. Although he tells me differently every time I may bring that up. I have not been DXED for depression. But I do take cymbalta which is antidepressant. I take it because my doctor told me that it would help with the nerve pain. But I Will make sure to tell the doctor how I feel like burden sometimes. I know I will be crying during this part of the examination. I don't want him or her to think that I am trying to cry. I hope they believe me when I tell them how scary this is for us. I guess I can only be truthful. Don't they say that the truth will set you free?!?!
I thank you again for all your advice. I have already been making copies every document concerning my RSD. That file is getting quite large!! I also hope that I get a nice person like you had. I hope they understand and are not just condescending to me.
Did you know that day how the doctor felt about your evaluation and memory test? I mean does he/she tell you that they feel that you should be approved or not? When you get a chance I would love to hear back from you or anybody else that has the answers to my questions.
Take care and;
May today be a Healthy and Happy one for you