Wow, it seems like you have been through a lot! Having 2 miscarriages sucks, but hang in there. I know someone who has had many more, and got pregnant and gave birth to a baby girl after 15 years of trying. As for your husband, if he's thinking about leaving you, that's his loss, not yours! I have been depressed on and off for the past 4 years, and my fiancee has no doubts about marrying me. We are getting married in less than 2 weeks. I'm not trying to make you feel bad, but maybe this guy's not the one for you. Maybe it's a good thing you did not have children together. ?As for the medication, if you think you can deal with things without it, power to you! It's normal to feel depressed after everything you have been through. Hang in there, if you can't you could try taking something until you get on your feet again. Good luck!