Re: Parents should get divorced
I completely understand what you are going through. My parents are in the same situation. Sometimes they are fine and I try and think that maybe they are just the type of couple that can't live apart, but can't live together. But other times it is blatantly obvious that they would both be happier apart. My mom is a little bit psycho and my dad is very passive, so, together, they make a deadly duo. I get a knot in my stomach every time I am around them at the same time. It is horrible.
For years I've felt responsible for their happiness - why do I deserve to be happy if my parents aren't even happy!?!? But you know what, now that I am recovered and living on my own, I realize that I am a separate individual and I have to focus on my own happiness - not theirs. They are big kids now. They can fight their own battles (sorry for the pun) and they are the only ones that can control their own happiness.
You having an eating disorder will not help them. It will not make you less vulnerable, less responsible, less anything, but healthy. You have to focus on YOUR life and YOUR happiness - take control of it. Don't let their fighting and unhappiness limit your happiness. It's a horrible situation to have to deal with and I wish it could be different for you, but it probably can't and you have to move on. No one is perfect...we just have to make do with what we can and be happy.