| | twice divorced men, and going backwards to an old lover
I haven't written for a long time,but, I just want to know what any men that have been through this would think in regards to what I am wondering now.....I have an ex- boyfriend that I "let go" about twenty years ago(he was at first a very NICE person, but, then turned abusive,but, he wasn't always like this...) I let him go because of this...but, I have still loved him anyways(he was pretty young and going into the Army)He had wanted me to marry him which I didn't , and somehow by a miracle (and I do mean just that!) I found him on a web site,and found several of his other addressess as well!! which aren't there now! and he and I started to write to each other,more me ,than him.He went off to the "sands"...Kuwait and the war,etc. The last letter that I got was "that he had gone to the sands and to keep in touch".I was wondering if he could still have any feelings for me....love feelings... at all? He has been married twice....the first marriage didn't work out because it was long distance, and the second one was because I guess that his wife was mentally sick, or something.....I have always loved this person....because he actually is a very funny , caring , intelligent and interesting person. I wrote him some"love" poems about how I felt about him(some people have seen the poems and said "WOW!!!" that I should send him the poems, and I did)...but, now I wonder if it will impact him or not, with how he is now....He told me that he doesn't want to come back to where I met him...ever.Can this change, do you think? He also told me that he has changed.I believe that I would love him no matter what....but, then again I do NOT want to be a doormat either!!! I don't think that he is abusive, but, some people think that once abusive, always abusive.....I know that I have a ton of questions here, but, I just need to know...it would help me out so much!!! I am very sad.I still am in love with him. I have never given up hope, because I believe that it must have been some kind of "divine intervention" to have found him(it is a long long story on THAT ONE!!) but, I really do feel that THIS was meant to be!!! HELP, What do I do!!!????I can't really do much right now,because I don't know where he is,but, do I have a chance to get him back, and how do a lot of men feel after two divorces? and all of the other things that I have said in this letter?? Please if you have somethin' to say....let me know! Thanks!!!