Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: las vegas,nv. usa
love her but should i let her go
I'm really having a tough time with my separation i'm going through and hoped for some help, some advice. I hav'nt talked to anyone about this, maybe telling strangers is easier.and once you hear it you'll think just do it. The problem is, i really love her. I'm turning 50 this year, that may be why its hard to let go, i feel i'll never meet anyone as beautiful as her. I have a 29 year old son who lives in nc and a 26 year old daughter who just moved in with me in oct. When she lost her job and could'nt afford her apt.their mom died in 2005 from a brain tumor. My 15 year old son lives with me, his mom died in 2010 from leukemia. My older brother moved in with me in dec. 2010, he is unable to or just wont work, he has issues, blind in one eye and a little wacky , but i love the guy, he cared for my parents when they were sick, our mom died in 2005, our dad just died in nov. 2010 and all my dad was worried about was what would happen to my brother when he was gone, so i promised my dad i would take care of him and it gave my dad the peace of mind he needed. Now i've been with my girlfriend since 2002, i met her the day i was having an ilizarov external fixator removed from my leg, i was in bad accident in 2001 and broke my back in 3 places, my neck in 3 places, my right leg was broken in 31 places below the knee, my femur was broken in half, it should have been amputated but this genius doctor saved my leg, 47 surgeries later i still walk on this leg, it hurts like hell, but i have a leg to stand on. Two and a half years ago my girlfriend and i had a beautiful son. While i'm on disability and in pain all the time with very little relief even with all the pain meds i'm on i'm taking care of our boy. 24/7 as they say. My girlfriend meanwhile starts gambling and using crystal meth. I am ******, i tell her she either gets help or get out, i need her you know? She was'nt helping with bills or housework or anything. Well she stops doing dope. In dec. 2009 she has an abortion, does'nt tell me she had it or that she was even pregnant til afterwards, her reason, we were'nt getting along. I did'nt know we were'nt getting along. So this leads me to believe shes cheating or doing drugs, by the way she is 15 years younger than me , and currently the oldest woman i've ever been with, since my first divorce in the 80's i hav'nt dated any girl my age, they have all been between 5 and 15 years younger.so, for the last 2 years every year she becomes the oldest woman i ever dated, maybe i'm bragging, sorry. 2 months later she tells me she wants to have another baby with me, i'm thinking are you nuts? Well we end up pregnant again only doing it once without protection, oops, happy little accident. Now i know she's a little upset i let my 25 year old daughter move in with us, i know shes upset i let my older brother move in with us and i even feel a little resentment with her that my 15 year old move in full time when his mom died last year but what the heck was i to do, they are my family i had to, who else would? Well in oct. The day after my 15 year olds birthday we have a beautiful girl. The next day i'm going to a harley shop to pick up a little outfit for my newest little sunshine and i get a call to come to the hospital immediately, i'm scared i think something wrong with my new daughter or my girlfriend. I get there and i'm met by the police and they escort me to her room, my girlfriend and my daughter test positive for crystal meth! I am ******, i find out the cop was there to prevent me from hurting someone, particularly the mom, i guess. Well i woud'nt hit her but i was mad. So now cps is involved and comes to my house once a week, tons of bull$#@&, right. Ok so my gf acts as if i'm to blame that she used meth cause i brought my family members in house, and f"n cps agrees, can you believe that, so 3 weeks ago i have a sitdown with gf and 3 counselors shes been dealin with since oct. And i tell them shes still stayin gone for 8 hours some days and some days gone for 1 or 2 days while either gambling or tweeking and i want to know what the hell cps is doing? They sure as hell ain't helping my situation, i thought they would help her to stay off drugs or teach her to come home at night and to be a mom, or at least help her get a job or something she has'nt worked in 2 years i support her on my disability and i take care of kids and i do the shopping, etc. I explode, so they tell my gf i have a temper and she has to move out and take my 2 babies with her, they set her up with section 8 housing even though she has no job, no money, blah blah blah, now i have to support her on my low income on disability as it is.what the hell, meanwhile my gf still wants to date me tells me she loves me but is forced to stay at this other house, and cps gets mad when she brings the babies to my house cause they say she has to keep them at the unfurnished place with no food or anything except what i bring her. So i'm forced to take her to court to file for full custody thats the only way i can legally take them home. So... I'm asking you all, "what the heck should i do"? I know this was way long but i need some outside help, thanks to any one willing to read this tale of wooo.
Last edited by harley614; 04-23-2011 at 03:31 AM.