Hi there Texan16 ..
I feel really sorry that you and your brother aren't speaking at a crucial time when you both really need each other..
You've both gone thru a lot of stress, altho it sounds like you're being the grown up one..
Is there anyone in your family ..
( like an Aunty/Uncle or a cousin.. someone just to bounce your feelings off ..)
you might get a bit of an understanding of your Mum & Dad from other members.. ??
or someone like a counsellor at school ( if your'e still there??) ..
You need to share it,
it's most important you don't carry it all on your shoulders ..
and try to see if your brother will open up to you..
Let him know YOU NEED him as well..Your'e BOTH hurting ..
and being a guy thinks Drugs and Alcohol are the answer ..
Well it's not.!!!...
Get him, Find him / some Counselling / A Mentor/ ANYONE who he can be honest with .. that he can trust & will break his silence...
He's built up a wall of protection ... I hope you can break thru it.?
My Sincere thoughts to you BOTH...
I will be thinking of you All.
With Kind thoughts belle