Hi Heartbroken ..
I can tell by what you say you are very genuine about
wanting her to halt the Divorce.. I gave u a big HUG..
You sound like you realise what you've done
and would do ANYTHING to make her change her decision..
but I guess she's probably thinking of your little child..
and she has had a long time to decide about the situation..
( it must've been bad for her that she took some pills..)
If she won't try to see you are willing to do ANYTHING to save your marriage and still goes ahead with her decision ..
all I can say is get some really good counselling for your self..
You need to learn to forgive yourself.. ( many people make mistakes )
and learn why you were tempted to cheat on the internet ..
( That's obvious anyway)
Turn it around so you don't do that in your next relationship..
(I know at the moment you don't think there will be another .. but it will happen in time.. )
Stressful Work didn't help you either, so learn from that as well, pace yourself..
remember ... We all make mistakes..
some are worse than others..
But this is a BIG Learning Curve for you..
Learn from it .. and one day, when it's all blown over .. Smile !!
and you'll find yourself ready to begin again..
Don't forget your little child though..
Their love is precious .. so I hope you keep in touch with him.. ??
I'm sure she would want him to still have his father around anyway..
So Be Happy.. Live well and Love well...
I wish you all the Luck in the World, Heartbroken,
and hope it turns out the way you want it..
I'll be thinking of you and your Wife at this time..
Love n Hugs to u both.. ..