Everything went to he!! in a handbasket last night. Really, the longest nite of my life. I couldn't wait until it was time to for him to go to work!!
Kept me up from 3:00 on just rambling, angry, venting about me not puttin him 1st because I was talking to a friend having a dilemia w/ her teenager when he called me. Turned in to him being upset about my "semi-A", as I refer to it (see earlier post from me if interested) and just on an on for 3 hours or more.
We have two amazing kids and I'm just devastated for them. They have been exposed to way to much and our daughter was awaken last night by our talking (loudly). This is one of many, many times this has happened. Christmas was the worst-he went wacky on me at 3:00 a.m.!
Anyway, as many of you can prob relate, it just breaks my heart to drag them through this. Having an unstable, tense household where parents argue is no good and neiter is divorce.
I hit a wall though and really want him OUT OF HERE. Cannot tolerate anymore of the craziness. I don't want to hear his voice, don't want his apologize, etc.. If it weren't for the fact that I know he is going to flip, I would tell him today. He has already told me he would pack up the kids if I ever make him leave. Asked me today if I would stick w/ him while he tried an anti-depressant but I think that will only back fire on me. He will resent me and it will be my fault that he is having to take them.
My question is, as badly as I want him to leave now, I should prob get legal advice first, right?? Just don't know my options should we get into a tangle about the kids, moving them, their furniture, etc.. The lease is in my name so I would think he can't take anything really. Just don't want to have to involve police or anything wacky like that.
I'm just worried b/c I have no $$ accessible to me for about 2 weeks and even then, it's quite limited. Do have an appt. w/ attorney on Fri and have expressed my concenrs about $$.
Anyway, any advice at this point??? Should I just go stay with a friend for a couple of days? I just don't know...Thank you!