dizzycookie

Hello. I have seen a doctor and a specialist, they seem to have differing experiences.
I had a perforation in my ear drum which caused many infections from the age of around 1-2 up until now.
I had a tympanoplasty in 2009, this did not work, I am still having repeat infection. I have had a few peoples opinions at my local hospital (small island), the specialists dont seem to stay very long in the ENT. I dont have much trust in the healthcare here, the surgeon who performed my operation did not do a great job and was arrested for fraud, the next one was going to flush my ear out with borax, he couldnt find that so he thought he might give canesten a go, he sounded so unsure I decided to leave it at that! he refused to admit there is still a hole present, however It hurts to blow my nose and creates a high pitch squealing noise from my ear. The latest specialist has said he can patch up the whole without cutting at the back of the ear.. im not sure what to think? is this the answer?

I do wish to resolve the problem, I have never been able to go swimming or wash my hair etc without having to protect my ear from any water, and that isnt my reason behind wanting to resolve this.

I am extremely dizzy, not as such that the room is spinning more like somewhere inbetween feeling drunk and hungover. The pavement feels squishy some of the time and I generally feel like im in some kind of fog, it blurs my vision and means I have to concentrate on simple things like walking in a straight line, these are worrying and something of an inconvenience, especially at work, I dont wish to be perceived as slow or incapable of certain things or for people to instantly assume that I have had a night on the drink.

On the occaisons I have seen my doctor about the above symptoms, he has sent me for the odd blood test, I think I tested borderline on b12 so was advised to take a supplement and sent on my way, other times he has just told me its probably got something to do with my ear so to flag it with my specialist, when II described the symptoms to the ear specialist the other day he said he doesnt why why they are, but doesnt think i should feel that way with my ear.

So still, no actual answers and I am still feeling rubbish, I really like to think the best of people and have an optimistic outlook, but after the doctors and specialists I have seen and what I have just written it may reflect otherwise. I am just getting worn out and would like to feel myself again.

Thank you
amy