I am really hoping i can get some answers from this site, i am at the end of my tether and just am so sick of it all that i have no where else to look.
Bit of background - im female, 41 next month, overweight, stopped smoking 4 years ago, rarely drink alcohol, i live in Scotland in a small rural town.
Things i do have - ectopic heartbeats, acid refulx (take omeprazole when have a flare up) restless leg syndrome - anxiety
Medications - femulen mini pill,omeprazole when needed, vitamin b complex
Tests ive had done - 24 hour holter monitor, heart ultrasound (3 years ago) blood tests. doctor looked in my ears and said they looked ok
It started 3-4 years ago, its hard to describe so please bear with me!!
I constantly feel like the world is slowly moving around me, its almost like i am on a very very slow moving roundabout all the time, sometimes i feel that if i move my head round too fast, it takes a split second for everything to "catch up" with my head
or it feels like when i move my head round my brain is loose inside my skull and it takes that split second to follow my head round - i know this is impossible its just how i could describe it
when im walking, i feel like im walking squint, almost like ive had a few drinks (i haven't) it is also like when im walking, you know how you "bob" up and down as you walk? it feels like with each step while looking forward, my brain is bobbing up and down making everything in the distance move and it gives me the "ive been drinking" feeling.
Also when im walking the ground feels spongy underfoot when clearly it is not, it also makes me feel i am an inch or two taller than i really am?
When i wake in the morning, even before i open my eyes, i can feel inside my head that the very slow moving roundabout thing is happening! I usually get up slowly and sit on the bed a few moments before getting up, but when i do, i am "swaying" while im walking about. Scares me so much!
Other things that make me off balance -
Big busy patterns on carpets and walls
Lots of people walking past me on the street/in a shop
Lots of people in a small room
Looking down long aisles in shops
Small ceramic tiles in the kitchen and bathroom
Scenes on television where the camera spins round fast, or spins fast round a static object/person
If i am vacuuming/mopping the floor
Another horrible sensation i feel is like the ground has suddenly "dropped" beneath me, at the same time everything around me "jolts/drops" and i often grab hold of something/someone as i really think the ground has fallen away, this lasts a split second then all is normal. I can also feel this while sitting on the couch watching tv etc.
I have been to the doctor about this many times, but i keep getting told its anxiety and they try to give me tablets which i wont take ( im scared of side effects)
I do have anxiety, i know i do, it started when my mum died suddenly of a heart attack 4 1/2 years ago aged only 54, im only just getting to grips with the grief, i know her death affected me deeply and it still does but the anxiety/fear of me having the same fate as her is not the same thing that i am feeling with this dizziness thing.
Ive told the doctor again and again i am anxious because i get this dizziness/off balance symptoms and its real, not "all in my head" but none of them will listen to me.
I dont know where to turn to anymore, my life is slowly getting depressing, i stopped working because of this last year and we are struggling now money wise, but i know i just cant work like this.
I keep asking them if my ears are ok, ive never got earache but i now the balance is controlled in the ears but they wont refer me to see anyone about it.
I cant see how i can get this solved.