girl3900

It's ironic how I started the thread asking how antidepressants could cause more depresssion...

So many things have happened to me since I started Zoloft. I was first prescribed 50mg from my family doctor and got really bad side effects from that so I quit. Then I went to a psychologist and she put me on 25mg...all the while, I kept having very bad thoughts. They all started when I first took the Zoloft. They were very gruesome and disturbing and it's a good thing I didn't want to act on them or I probobly wouldn't be here right now. I repeatedly asked my psychologist if these drugs could cause me to become more depressed/have bad thoughts and she told me it was impossible. I figured it was just me so i continued to take them and she bumped my dosage up to 50mg again. That was a huge mistake. The thoughts and the depression were getting so bad to the point where I couldn't leave the house. I was crying all day and was ready to give up. I ended up going to the emergency room. The doctors there told me I was on too high of a dose and that I should definetly get off it. They told me it was the drugs that were doing it. I don't know who to believe....I asked my psychiatrist so many times the side effects of these and she said it wasn't from the pills. I've been off them for 3 days now and I feel like myself again. No more crying and no more bad thoughts. She called me tonight and I told her what had happened and she still told me to not go by the warning labels because they "weren't true". She wanted to put me on something else and I told her I didn't want to be on anything else. Is it possible she just wants my money? I don't know if I got a very bad doctor or if my mind is just playing tricks on me. I'm so confused. All I know is that I feel a lot better being off the medicine. I wish I could find someone else that has gone through the same thing...I feel like no one believes me when I tell them it was the drugs.