Relapse - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

bbybyrd · 12-04-2004, 03:51 AM

Well, I relapsed yesterday afternoon. I just felt so frustrated with everything, especially my OCD, and ordered a bunch of food and just ate and ate and ate. Just when I thought I was getting better it all just seemed to crumble before my eyes. And I didn't tell anyone about it but i know I'll have to talk to my therapist about it. I just don't want to feel like a failure. I have too many issues right now (mental health wise) and it seems like everytime I try to get better something knocks me right back down. I don't know what I need from this post. I guess I just needed to get this out and a little encouragement.

hgfreefo · 12-04-2004, 11:20 AM

you do need encouragement and i will give you as much as i can,but the person you really need to get it from is yourself.so you messed up,it's not the end of anything,just a part of your journey towards health.focus on what
positives you done.keep reminding yourself of your value and get back to work.positive thoughts and positive actions-together they will move you forward and your relapses will diminish.some day,without your realizing it,they'll be gone-replaced by your simply enjoying food for its own sake from time to time,without the guilt and remorse.

bbybyrd · 12-05-2004, 04:06 AM

One of the positives that I've been able to pull from this situation is that I did go 4 to 5 months without binging so I guess I should just look to that and realize that I have it in me to do that again and maybe even go longer.